When I started writing here, I did not expect this site to become my outlet for what I eventually realized is the subject I can go on and on writing and talking about: music. When I finished high school and began college, I held more of an interest in politics & history, with minor interests in ethnomusicology and urban planning/history. After a month at Harvard, I knew that I would never be deeply interested in politics and history. Those were not subjects that I wanted to dedicate four years and countless energy studying. After that, I became lost. What would I spend four years studying that would make me happy and interest me enough to justify staying up late and writing papers?
As my college experience devolved and my dislike of Harvard intensified, I looked into studying urban planning/history and/or ethnomusicology at Harvard College. I couldn’t find conclusive information online or from pamphlets and Harvard professors & advisers were of almost no help. I knew what I wanted to study; I just couldn’t find the program (or programs) that allowed me to focus on those topics. I declared Sociology as my concentration, but I really had no idea why the hell I chose it. I should have hounded the Music Department or some other department about how their department could accommodate me. I stupidly chose Sociology without probing much how they could accommodate me.
I wasted a year-and-a-half of my education lost and without finding how I would be able to study what I was really interested.
Blogging (I despise this term, but there’s no better way to describe it) helped me discover that my real interest was in music, Mexican music, to be exact. I always doubted that it was my real interest because I have little formal education in music. Almost all of my knowledge comes from playing in mariachis and listening to Mexican music. Urban history is interesting and I like it, but I’m really interested in it in a case-to-case basis and how it intersects with music in L.A. I want to expand and continue with research on the spread of Mexican music in Los Angeles and other urban areas of the United States. All my writing on music has benefited me in other areas, but that’s for the next post.
I apologize for the cussing. It’s not something that’s part of my daily writing. I want to be frank with you, dear reader, and deleting the cussing would be a disservice to how I feel and think about subjects.